Sunday, August 28, 2011

There's a new normal a coming my way ...


It is funny how life seems to meander along the same path for a long time where not much changes and, then all of a sudden, the path ends and we must go off in another direction.  I am there right now.  Life as we know it is ending, in all possible ways, and a new path is awaiting all of us.

My Mr 19 moved out of home 3 weeks ago.  We are all getting used to him not being here now.  My initial sadness has now been replaced with acceptance.  He is happy and loving his freedom and independence.  I am certainly enjoying the decrease in washing and price of my grocery bill.  I do miss kissing his soft cheek each night and hearing him say "I love you mum" every day.   Mr 17 is loving the fact that his towel is always hanging where he left it and he can sleep without hearing the snoring from the next room.

M and I are leaving for Italy in eight days to get married and have a wonderful holiday.  I am beyond excited about this and can't wait to be on the plane and on our way.  When we get back I will be a wife.  I will have a husband.   I will also have a new last name.   This is a huge thing for me.  For the first time I will have a different surname to my children - this makes me feel a little bit funny.  I will also have the surname of the man I have loved for a very long time and I know this makes me feel very happy.

While we are away, Mr 17 is going to the USA to work.  He will be staying there until mid November.  When he comes back he won't be the Mr 17 I said goodbye to.  He will be different.  He will have spent almost 3 months in another country without his mum.  For the first time I won't be an integral part of his life.  He will grow up and this will be a good thing for him.  I am going to miss him while I'm away and I'm going to miss the boy I said goodbye to, but I do  look forward to seeing the young man who comes back to me.  

The next eight days are definitely going to be busy with working and getting organised for our big trip.  They are also going to be filled with so much excitement (I am literally trembling with it).  Despite the excitement, the days will also be filled with a sense of nostalgia and wistfulness.  I will be holding on tightly to everything from the now so I don't forget it, because when we come back a new normal awaits us.  Usually a new normal creeps up slowly until one day we just realise things have changed.  This time I get to cherish the last few days of our now while I also get excited about the new now that lies ahead.

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27 comments:

Sarah said...

Oh Annie, so many changes ahead, but they all seem to be incredibly positive and exciting. It's strange how they all seem to happen at once isn't it? Sending you nothing but love and warmest wishes to you and yours xxx

Lana said...

You are a magnificent mother - you really are. And I know you will be a wonderful and happy wife xxxx

Leanne said...

What a beautiful post. To look ahead and enjoy what is to come whilst seeing what has been. Such an amazing time for you and so much to process. So often we look back at the path we took but how amazing to consider the path that lies before us. Possibilities are endless. Best wishes for the journey!

gorgiegirl said...

You are obviously a great Mum to have these feelings. As a mother of boys...you made me cry. I wish you happiness for your future - which I'm sure is coming your way anyway! Be happy - stay positive...and thank you for all you have written to make me happy! Exciting times ahead for you!!!

fifi_labelle1 said...

Oh, you have so many exciting and life changing things happening around you right now....I love how you write so beautifully about your boys. You are so much of an inspiration to me, and I'm so glad to know you and call you a friend....xxxx
Have an amazingly wonderful wedding and enjoy some 'wedded bliss time' together....lots of love & hugs :-)

Chantel said...

Lovely post Annie, and so much Joy coming to you in your future. Enjoy every second!! xx

Ms Styling You said...

Oh Annie, just so exciting. Can't wait to hear how it all unfolds x

anjwritesabout.com said...

Beyond excited for you in this time of beautiful and somewhat bittersweet change. You'll blossom in it, I bet! ;) Love and all my dearest wishes... xoxo

So Now What? said...

Such an exciting time for you Annie. And so much going on. Enjoy it and soak up as much as you can if possible. Love to you and when you come back you'll be Mrs.... xxx

Denwise aka Denyse Whelan said...

Such a beautiful post, and a lovely story unfolding for you and M. Happy days ahead, as the journey takes you from home to new horizons, which include marriage...and very good wishes for the whole new life ahead.
Love Denyse XX

Christie said...

Enjoy the build up Annie, I wish you and your partner the most beautiful time on your Wedding holiday. Love and best wishes, Christie xx

Diminishing Lucy said...

Just 8 days? Oh my! Annie, it is all so beautifully positive. I am so glad. Revel in it. (And that your son still tells you he loves you at 19 is beautiful. Shows what a tops Mum you are...)

xxx

Jane of Australia said...

Annie,
'Usually a new normal creeps up slowly until one day we just realise things have changed..'
How true this is. Wonderful that you are so in the moment, or moments yiu can see it, feel it etc

Apart from the crazy imaginings on Twitter I wish you well in this fabulous journey,as well as your trip. Not to mention your life.

Jane

Yvette Vignando said...

Lots of love to you Annie - I will post a longer comment when I am feeling healthier! But you know I wish you a magical holiday and loads of fun xx

Donna said...

Oh how much happiness awaits in this new normal, you're excitement is palpable! Even with the bittersweet sense of your children morphing in to men, I can sense so much wonder awaits in this next chapter x

Megan Blandford said...

I'm so excited for you! It would appear, I'm learning again myself, that change - no matter how good - is always a little bittersweet.

Kylie L said...

Sounds absolutely perfect. You deserve no less... and your boys will fly. You have given them wings. xxx

Life In A Pink Fibro said...

Wow - what a busy time. All the best Annie - you deserve it! x

Nathalie said...

What a gorgeous post to read before I go to sleep. Italy is just the most perfect place for your marriage. Your boys sound divine just like their mum.
Have a wonderful time x

bigwords is... said...

How very exciting Annie. What an amazing Mum you are. Enjoy the lead up to your wedding, much love xx

Peter Brewer said...

I just love watching the 'new you' evolve! Although I reckon the old one was pretty damn hot! :) Enjoy the new exciting chapter/s Annie!

You DESERVE good things!

Naomi said...

Annie, have a wonderful, wonderful time. Your boys are making their way, you have taught them well. Go, enjoy and here's to the next chapter xxx

An Idle Dad said...

Huzzah! That s all.

Maxabella said...

Far out, that's a lot to take in! You really are at the edge of a new life, Annie. Jump, my dearest, JUMP! x

flowersinmywords said...

What a beautiful post. Hope you have a wonderful time away and enjoy getting to know your new normal! x

Maxabella said...

I'm just popping in to tell you that I hope you are having a wonderful honeymoon!!!!! x

Felicity said...

Stopping by to say that I haven't seen you about for a while and hoped that married life is blissful and you are well.

Happy weekend Lovely,
xx's

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